Robbie Williams – Under the radar (volume 1)

Robbie Williams… I knew his songs all the way from my primary school. We sang “Angels” in english language class and probably it was first song I understood in hundred percent. Pretty memorable. But I never thought, that Robbie has such an amazing voice and will influence me in such a way in my “more” adult life.

I started to listening his music for real in my first work, in Redknee company. Suddenly it became my favourite artist, I listened “The best of” once a day for about month… Even The Killers with charismatic Brandon Flowers couldn’t top it.

“Even The Killers?” – asked tall girl.  – “You loved them! Remember when that girl dumped you and you sang Just another girl all the time…?”

Erm… shut up, or I don’t let you stick it to my blog so hard… that didn’t happened.

“Swing both ways” became my favourite album. With all those music styles and fantastic lyrics I sang it over and over. But lately I discovered on Spotify “Under the radar”. That was a thrill.

“Bully” – that one catch me by my balls. Never heard anything like this. Awesome mix of effects and brave lyrics. It almost makes me want to go and fight anybody anywhere. Pure energy. Pure man power. And it’s first track… just to tease me. Just to say “Hey, you’re in love with this and it’s just beginning, my little bitch!”.

“H.E.S.” – one of those easy going songs, which makes you feel better. Although it’s rough truth about world we live in. About “world of lies”.

“The Edge” – well… probably song of every man out there. Who doesn’t follow his desire, doesn’t make mistakes he regret, doesn’t fight in his rebel days? Everybody has something to say about it. And this lyrics are about watching it all from new perspective. From perspective of a man, who found his place in world, next to a woman. I’m still not in this point, I’m still looking for this in my life.

I had to lose myself for years to find this
Mistook the cruelty and abuse for kindness

“National Treasure” – still curious who’s mr. Jones. Song is nice and catchy. Like almost all in this album. It’s got that unique mystery, cause lyrics makes it impossible to guess who Robbie is singing about.

“Super Tony”  – one of the most kind and light drug songs! I guess Tony is Tony Montana, famous Scarface, the character I adore.

“Bullet” – more classy song. Remind me of the… song in which girl died and Robbie’s left with her photo (“The Postacard”). No idea about the title. But it’s more about true love than any other. Real pearl of the album. The best left for the last. Nice job.

I highly recommend this album to anybody. It’s available free through Spotify. And Robbie Williams is that kind of guy everybody likes.



God’s wisdom

So I’m sitting in my place, it’s the deepest, darkest and coldest night in the year… so far. “You can’t always get what you want” by Rolling Stones comes through speakers. It’s the only song from this band I like. There’s a glass of cider next to my left hand. I like this beverage, although I never liked beer. My room is a mess. That’s why I went to church.

I haven’t been there for about 2 years. I disagree with this institution in many points. But due to my grandfather death I decided to… try. Again. And see what will happen.

The church near my home is one of the worst place ever. All events are long, boring and extremaly uninteresting. That’s why I get to bus and after 20 minutes in cold, with Robbie Williams’s songs in my head and leave it next to the other church. They say it’s important because of some historic events. Maybe I will read about it some day.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

The same was in the beginning with God.

All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.

In him was life; and the life was the light of men.

And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.

There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.

The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all men through him might believe.

He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light.

That was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.

He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not.

He came unto his own, and his own received him not.

But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:

Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.

And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.

… pretty fucked up, isn’t it? I always had seizures when reading it. But also… I like it in some strange way. Priest told us to change “Word” into “Wisdom”. And now it makes a lot more sense actually. And he left us with question: “What is God’s wisdom to you?”

That is a good question. Very good. I believe in God. They say He’s got a plan and tiny human minds cannot understand it. That everything what we encounter in life has some wicked sense and purpose. I believe there is no sense in asking God about things we can achieve by ourselves. It’s in our hands and we’re the blacksmith of our life. In other case people won’t get free will. So what’s God wisdom? I believe it’s all about coincidence. That those little points in one’s life are connected. And yes, we cannot understand it, cannot predict. Many people says: “God, take this from my back, I need relief”. But relief probably is already coming. God’s got a plan. Maybe we just should believe in it.

I’m not a fan of making everything into religion, but this video show’s what I’m thinking in great detail.

Another drip of cider. It’s so… fresh. Alcohol is slowly dancing in my veins. And I’m moving to “National Treasure” by Robbie Williams. Religion is kinda fucked up. I mean how people can fight and kill over it? Maybe I just don’t get it… but I’d rather be called atheist then harm the other person because of this. Anyway, God, I’m here and I want to try to hear your words. Your wisdom.

More about me

You know what’s beautiful in this net diary? I can write whatever I feel like, whenever I feel like. And I fancy talking about me some more.

When I walk down the street, I usually look straight. I know I look good in my clothes. No smile, no emotions on face. Just walk. Straight back. Making every step manifest of my energy. Wearing earphones I’m isolated from grey world of sounds and views. I always go from point to point, glancing on my watch or smartphone. No need for gently stroll or observing nature. There is always a plan. I know what I have to do and I won’t stop until it’s done. Later I will probably relax in my house.

You ask me where I’m going? Not many places.

  • University of Technology. Sounded like an adventure, came to be waste of time. I spent there long 3.5 years learning staff I hate. After getting diploma I will work in totally different field so… I’m doing it just for paper.
  • Work. Right now I’m looking for one. I will work in information technology field, creating and analyzing programs. That’s what I’ve been training for last 3 years, while avoiding boring University.
  • Casual restaurants. I usually meet my friends there. I got one close friend and some less close. We meet from time to time to talk about our lives, eat candies and have good time.
  • Park. I got pretty park next to my flat. It’s my running place. Main loop has about 5.3 km. When alone, I’m listening to music, to pump me up. Usually when I run, there goes slow songs. After workout, suddenly those fast appear. I got 3 running friends. It’s always fun to workout with them.
  • Home. I spent here the most of my time. I got small room with my notebook and external monitor on desk, some old books on shelves, never made up bed, always uncovered windows and cactus praying for the sun.  There is also a roommate, spider in corner. No matter how many spiders from corner I killed, another one always appear. So I decided to befriend one spider. At least I know, it’s the same one… They are not changing… right?

You ask me about my attitude? There was a time when I wanted to smile to everybody I met on streets. But it disappear. Probably kind person in me changed into more rough one. It’s just a jungle. And I’m making people get off my way. I want them to respect me. If they will, I will show them respect as well. If they won’t, I’ll make them respect me. I’m still working on this. Maybe one day I’ll change my mind and find smiling worth it.

You ask me about my energy? Although I used to be insecure and shy person, puberty made me much stronger nad self-centered man. I know how much I can do. I know I can rule the world. I feel the power in my body. I love running and changing this energy in pure happiness hormones. I used to train martial arts, but it ain’t my thing. I feel power of my mind. I can persuade and manipulate others. I can understand everything. And I’m still looking for power from faith. That’s not my domain. But I work on everything.

You ask me what I’m listening? 

  • Robbie Williams. I love this guy. Well, more like his music. I discovered it on vacation and can’t let go. It’s so various, sometimes gentle, sometimes rough. “Swing both ways” is album, that constantly can be heard from my window.
  • Michael Buble. There is a jazz soul in me. And Michael is for me new Sinatra. I know they sing differently, yet I always imagine him inheriting Frank’s best features and bringing some modern things to old hits. And it works perfectly. Like in “Under my skin”.
  • Jamie Cullum. No idea how I found him. But he’s got some attitude I like. And I love his relationship with wife. Not many women would marry shorter guy. Love is real here. And Jamie sings Rihanna’s song better then Rihanna herself.
  • Three Days Grace. Pure power and dark energy, as I call it. It flows deep from heart depth and touches every men soul and memories. Perfect for certain situations.
  • The Killers – Brandon Flowers himself is enormously charismatic person. The Killers has so many awesome tracks, so much good music. I’d choose “Sam’s town” and “Just another girl” as my favorites.
  • Ed Sheeran, Mumford & Sons, David Grey, Milow, McBusted, Sunset Sons… And many, many more.

You ask me about my wares?

  • My watch is a cheap watch. I was looking for a watch for about 10 years. I can’t wear what I don’t like. The one I got was formerly my father’s. But he have it to me, when he saw how much I loved it. Now 5 years passed and I still wear it.
  • My smartphone is Android based phone with some scratches. I use it as my mp3 player (Spotify!) and programming station.

You ask me about my relax?

  • Movies. I don’t watch them frequently, only when I feel like.
  • My own programming projects. Although I treat code as my work, I like doing some solo projects. There is always time for knowledge.
  • Gaming. Not as good as when I was younger, but still sometimes I just go to computer and spend time on mindless pleasure.
  • Books. I love reading. I do it everywhere where I can. On buses, waiting in car, in work… Everywhere!

PS. Friendly hug for my female friend, who knows about this blog, but has no idea about the address. I will pass it to her, if this blog reaches crazy 100 followers… She’ll probably never see it  <winking>

Setting Broadcom wireless internet drivers on Ubuntu

I inherited small netbook once. It’s not a NASA thing, but it works quite nice. The only problem was… it lacked operation system and had weak battery (~20 min). The first thought I got when playing with it for some time: “There shall be Linux!”. And that’s how my small adventure started. Acer Aspire One has one big disadvantage – Broadcom wireless internet card. What does it mean? No internet from beginning! Netbook has Ubuntu 15.10 operation system in Mate flavor (so good…).

So what to do about it? Let’s see.

First we need to check what wireless card is in netbook. To do so, use command:

lspci -nn -d 14e4:

This small command shows all information required to identify wireless card. This should show some stuff, but the most important is number in brackets []. That’s PCI:ID. For example in my netbook the PCI:ID is [14e4:4315]. Now let’s remove any other wireless drivers that may be installed, by using:

sudo apt-get purge bcmwl-kernel-source

Move to updating stuff. Execute those two linux spells:

sudo apt-get update

sudo update-psciids

Those two will update indexes of available packages in system and update all PCI.IDs.

Now the tricky part. Knowing PCI.ID, find appropriate drivers on page linked below in bibliography.

After installation reboot computer, for example by:

sudo init 6

And finally stop b43 module, enable it again and unblock with this set:

sudo modprobe -r b43

sudo modprobe b43

sudo rfkill unblock all

Now netbook should find and connect smoothly with wireless network. Have fun watching funny cats!


Let us begin, shall we?

So here is my first blog. I do not intend to make it big or popular. It’s more like a personal bubble in wide world. And wide world web. Or WWW. Yeah, get used to feeling awkward a lot while reading <psycho voice> my mind.

There will probably be just my personal stuff here, but in case someone would like to know me a bit better, I will introduce myself.

Right now, at 21.37*, I’m still a student on University of Technology. And I live in Poland. Not too handsome, not extremaly inteligent… there is even no intresting fetish in my bed. I consider myself a guy with potential and possibilities, but unable to do whatever he wants. Catholic, yet not agreeing with everything church says. Heterosexual, yet tolerant to homosexual people… until they do nasty stuff on streets. Willing to escape my hometown, yet forced to stay here. I speak polish (obviously!), english, still learning spanish, C/C++, Java and some web development languages. I frequently donate blood (got about 7l sucked down from me!) and constantly have problems with my legs. And I love running. God knows I love it. But what makes me feel young is programming. Yeah, inserting letters on monitor, making funny words and having orgasms whenever it works first time. Yeah… not too much happy moments…

“So hey, what is it gonna be about?” – asked tall woman in blue shirt.

Good question. Blog is gonna be about… a lot actually. I want it to be part of my life. Part of my… plan. Plan of being man. What does it mean? I consider myself a guy, normal, everyday, grey guy you miss on street and not even noticing him. I have small life, small chats, small pets (actually I do). But I am still not a man I’d like to be. Like many guys probably. And I want to change it. Make my dreams come true. You know, I’m the blacksmith of my life.

“And how this blog is going to help you with it?” – asked dark-blonde hair woman while eating cookie. With chocolate.

Another good question. I believe sharing my thoughts about world, people, relationship, programming, God, peanut butter jelly, rubik cube, my dog-ass shaped hangers, The Killers, my romantic stories and that one book I read recently (Monte Christo <3) (it’s always funny world for me – “recently”. It sounds great. And for damn long time I didn’t know its meaning, yet I was still using it…) will have a good impact on my life. I need place to speak freely.

“Sounds strange. Are you sure? What about your insecurity?” – asked girl making those panda eyes, that always makes me feel weak.

Yeah, I was insecure for much too long. But it’s ended. Have a drink on me!


So, I’m really glad you have just read this small introduction. My mind is a mess so it sometimes may feel a bit chaotic, a lot of breaking my own points, etc… Also english is my second language, so please, don’t kill me for typ… No, take internet-shotgun and fire it right in my face if you see any typo or stupid mistake! You have my permission. I want it to be pretty and fancy and correct. Cause I always care about such a things.

Take a good care and see you again sometimes!
PS. Don’t hesitate to contact me, I always apprecieate emails, even from total strangers!

PS2. You can leave comments somewhere here probably… I’m not really into blogs, I’ll slowly make it awesome and customized to my needs. Probably.

*this time will always makes me remember about JP2.